Holy Shit, I did this

My ultimate goal was to hit 199 this year. To be out of 200's and into onderland. As of today I hit 198. I am so stinking proud of myself. It has been 8 months and I have made it. I have struggled and survived and I am there. It has been a battle. Learning to take breaks, how much sodium is okay and how to deal with cravings but I am there. I am so proud of myself and I will continue this journey. Next goal, 175 by July 29th 2012. Welcome to Onderland Susan. You deserved this a long time ago.

Here we are

I am still learning all the right and wrong things I can and cannot have. But in the end it is worth it. With holidays, tempting fast foods, tempting snack foods I am learning discipline. I am now only weighing in once a week as once everyday was too stressful for me to maintain. I am proud to report as of today I am 203.6. Not my lowest but it is pretty darn good for me! I am also starting to think my scale was off the day I weighed in at my lowest. So I am learning as I go. I am struggling but I just realized I am 3.7 lbs from my goal for the year. I still have 5 months and I am almost there. I dream of going to my dr come December and I am not just 40 lbs from my starting weight but closer to 50. I am going to keep focusing. Think positive and I am going to hit my goal. I am proud of who I am right now. I can do this and keep showing my family the healthy way to be.

Up & Down Like a roller coaster

I am up and down like a roller coaster but I always am getting back on track and that is most important. Right now I am sitting at 206. Yes it is not 202.5 but it is still pretty good considering right now I have my woman issues. So we will see where this week goes. I am eating less carbs and more fruits and veggies. If I am determined I will make it back to my 202 or even 200 soon. When there is a will there is a way and I have not lost that will yet. Combine that with EA active training and 2-4 hour swim sessions these pounds will melt away.

Amazing Changes are going on right now!

So as of Friday I weighed in at 204.5. I am so close to the 200 mark I can taste it. I am thrilled to see that number. Of course you know this past week was memorial day. So I also ate, ate and ate. I will make it up for you and I am expecting to be at 208-210 from all the sodium and water retention. But I will get better again.

This weekend I really saw a change in my body shape. I noticed Ro took the time to check out my efforts and really appreciated them. I feel like a woman again. I will keep updating here. Just as summer begins it is pretty hard. Wish me luck. My journey is far from over. When I started this back in January I never dreamed I would be this close this fast. But determination is a strong feeling. I will succeed. For myself, my children and my marriage. I am determined woman. I am strong!

Progress

Slow and steady wins the race. As I was watching biggest loser I realized how unrealistic the program is. Women and men lose weight half their bodies and people praise them. This all happens in a 6 month period. I do not understand how a person can lose 20 lbs a month and do it in a healthy fashion that will be able to be maintained. I let it depress me and I slept like a baby. I woke up this morning convinced I would be stuck at 212 again for the 5th day in the row. I got up got ont he scale and hear the words. "Oh" In a good voice. I look up at the screen and it says "208". My heart leaps out of my chest. I am out of my slump. Praying I can stay out of it. It is hard work but worth it. I will keep everyone updated.

My poor blog is so neglected

I promise though that I am not slacking too much. As of right now at this very moment I weigh 215 pounds! That is a loss of 27 lbs since my heaviest weight. I think I could lose faster if I worked harder but my doctor assured me that slow and steady is the best way to go. My doctor is very pleased with my blood work. Right now my triglycerides are perfect. My good cholesterol is low though so I am taking 2 tablets of fish oil now and continuing to take my vitamin d.

I have given up the biggest loser but I am now doing EA Active. EA active makes me sweat like a madwoman but I love it.

I am calorie counting still and trying my best but that is where I am. I am going and going. Slowly but surely and I am being strong. It is hard it is a battle and someday I shall reveal all my secrets. But for now I struggle.

I have been slacking

Not only on my blog but in real life. I let Spring Break become an excuse to slurge and gorge. However last week I said enough is enough. I was back up to 224. Unacceptable in my book. Monday I got back on the diet track and then Tuesday I was hit with the stomach bug. Then the rest of the week I took it really easy on food. Sunday I invested in some diet supplements and then this week I have been low carbing it.

Example my meal plan today

Breakfast: Egg, 2 oz cheddar cheese, cup of grape juice

Lunch: Lasagna small peice

Dinner: Chicken with steamed carrots and orange juice

Snack: Sugar Free Jello and a yogurt.

Today I weighed in for the heck of it. I am now 218! Woo hoo. Actually I am 218.3 but I am going to be there if I keep this up. I totally know I am going to do good this way. I am still going to have a free day (Saturdays) but as a family we are also giving up eating out except for once a week.

I am proud of the woman I am becoming. My highest weight ever was 248. That is insane. Now at almost 218 that is 30 lbs loss. I do not see it in my body but I think that is cause my brain is trained to see it that way. I am hoping to get some new clothes this week. At least I can hope for some. We will see. So while my journey is not over and I did lose my path I am now back on this wonderful journey. Thank you for following it.